i wish i was less emotional… i can’t keep it in check, or control anything i feel any more. i don’t want things to change and no matter how much i try to hold it together i feel like it is all just too much.
i want to feel okay. but right now, nothing feels okay although everything actually is. and that’s only because i’m just so afraid, of losing things, of losing people, of losing myself. the fear is consuming me and i don’t know how i can get out.
i just want everything to be okay.