The past week has been absolutely terrifyingly difficult to go through, at every turn being reminded of all that I have to lose if I cross the thin line that separates me from the path to redemption and falling prey to the same demons of the past.
I want to be good but every part of me just screams out to give in… but I won’t give up. I’ve come too far to give up, have too much on the line to lose. I love too many people to let them all down.
I want to make them all proud, I want to do it for the people who believe in me, I want to do it for the ones Above who want to see me be the best version of myself.
I cannot give up. I must hold on for as long as it takes. It’s not about myself anymore. I need to keep fighting. And let the light win.